It’s the last week of Nano…already. I can’t believe how fast this month have gone. Probably because I had a deadline.
I clocked 38,544 words last night so I am well on target.
The story is a little all over the place though. I am not sure where my start and middle are anymore as ideas for scenes just pop in my head and I just write them. I try to tie them in somehow to what I have already written but I go back and forth on the timeline a lot. Thankfully, thanks to Scrivener, I can easily keep track of all the scenes and at the end, using the cork board, I’ll be able to rearrange them.
The original plan to have 3 leading ladies is somewhat devolving as one of them takes more of the centre stage. Then again, as this is meant to be part of a series, I can highlight each character on different episodes.
A lot of the early scenes I wrote will probably belong to the Backstory folder in the end but it was useful to write them nonetheless and didn’t do any harm to the wordcount counter either.
Overall, this has been a much better experience for me than the previous years. I don’t feel as stressed about it and I think I have made some sort of plan helped.
Only 11,456 words to write in 8 days, which means my daily word count has gone down to 1,432 words. I am going to try to keep to 1,667 words if I can so I might even be done before the deadline of 30th. I have to think of an ending…which I have been putting of for some time now.
Soon my precious…soon.
Nano 2016 kick starts tomorrow and I am in a panic.
I feel that all the prep I have done is rubbish and not enough to get me passed Chapter 3! – if you have read some of my previous writing posts, you will know that chapter 3 is my nemesis.
What’s there to panic about I hear you ask ?
- I thought I had created beats for the story but having made the mistake to read some other ‘book for writers’, I am now thinking a) they are shit and b) they are not real beats.
- My characters don’t really have internal conflicts or interesting external conflicts except for ‘this is where demons attack’
- I don’t have a fleshed out uber villain
- I think I have given myself too many characters to worry about, although I am planning to make this a series so I don’t really need to evolve them too much.
- I don’t have high stakes or rising stakes…
All I can think about right now is to go around in circle, shouting ‘gahhhhh’ whilst pulling my hair! And I haven’t even started yet.
I can’t decide if I should be a planner or pantser and I can’t seem to do the work how it should be done in between. I keep changing my mind and indecision is killing me (not literally of course).
Part of me wants to go ‘sod it, why am I doing this to myself, just give it up’ and another part wants to bitch slap that defeatist approach…
I really, really want to write a novel. Even if it’s a short one and as usual, I am my own worst enemy.
or for the unaware amongst yourselves: National Novel Writing Month.
This is something I have discovered only recently (thanks WordPress) and I find myself attracted to enough that I created a profile on the website but I also chickened out of committing to write that novel in a month.
What is it about?
National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) is a fun, seat-of-your-pants approach to creative writing. On November 1, participants begin working towards the goal of writing a 50,000-word novel by 11:59 p.m. on November 30. Valuing enthusiasm, determination, and a deadline, NaNoWriMo is for anyone who has ever thought fleetingly about writing a novel.
It’s free to sign up and there are loads of supporting resources, potential for meetups, pep talks, etc. from other writers. But most important is it is a community. You get regular emails (if you want to) to keep you updated of the deadlines but also providing a bit of pep talks. There are even some meetups in some of the major cities, including London (if you specify your city, then you get enrolled in your local mailing list). I think it’s amazing and tip my hat to those who came up with the idea.
Now, I am not ready yet to write my novel. I am not even sure I am ready to write a short story! Maybe I am procrastinating (I am very good at that) or maybe I am really not ready but here’s the thing. I will do it next year, I swear!
2014 is meant to be my year of bucket list filling moments. I am turning 40 in January (brrr, where did my thirties go?) and as I will never have children to leave my mark on the world, I feel that I need some sort of legacy. It’s a bit cheesy I know but I also know that I have at least one novel in me. It doesn’t automatically matter if I ever get published (although it would be nice), it’s more something I feel I need to do.
So here is my commitment for next year: I will participate to NaNoWriMo 2014…dang, I just had goosebumps…
If you are interested in this project, visit their website www.nanowrimo.org.