NaNoWriMo 2016: ‘The day before it starts’ panic

Nano 2016 kick starts tomorrow and I am in a panic.

I feel that all the prep I have done is rubbish and not enough to get me passed Chapter 3! – if you have read some of my previous writing posts, you will know that chapter 3 is my nemesis.

What’s there to panic about I hear you ask ?

  • I thought I had created beats for the story but having made the mistake to read some other ‘book for writers’, I am now thinking a) they are shit and b) they are not real beats.
  • My characters don’t really have internal conflicts or interesting external conflicts except for ‘this is where demons attack’
  • I don’t have a fleshed out uber villain
  • I think I have given myself too many characters to worry about, although I am planning to make this a series so I don’t really need to evolve them too much.
  • I don’t have high stakes or rising stakes…

All I can think about right now is to go around in circle, shouting ‘gahhhhh’ whilst pulling my hair! And I haven’t even started yet.

I can’t decide if I should be a planner or pantser and I can’t seem to do the work how it should be done in between. I keep changing my mind and indecision is killing me (not literally of course).

Part of me wants to go ‘sod it, why am I doing this to myself, just give it up’ and another part wants to bitch slap that defeatist approach…

I really, really want to write a novel. Even if it’s a short one and as usual, I am my own worst enemy.

 

 

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